Living Funeral

It was not you bringing flowers

To me for my death it was always

Me presenting them to you because

I was always dying inside just like

They would do in a vase you would put them

Within signifying my beautiful goodbye…



Hey Long Time No See…

sorry I’ve been away for a bit on this bizarre adventure in life, I believe I met the love of my life, destiny tapped me on the shoulder and asked me to take a leap of faith… to love again, so I did just that and my wings finally opened like a butterfly

ah speaking of which I live in a different area of south city now I finally got away from all the gun violence and drama of south city St. louis I’ve got some pretty cool roommate one of them and I have a very interesting relationship

lake is his name : my body guard.

this is something I wrote in the past presented to you in the moment…

“My body guard and I have this interesting relationship where we curse each other out and laugh about it just a moment ago he said he wanted to fight me I told him I would meet him outside then I said ” bring it on you son of a bitch I’m ready, we are outside” we didn’t cross fists instead we laughed 😊 

🙂 believe it or not I’m about to thumb wrestle my body guard he is much older than me 😊 we are even going to play rock paper scissors 😊 lets see who wins

Guess who won?

He did.

But guess who really won?

By reminding him of being a child….laughter followed after he was reminded like lighting like thunder” ~ Thabo


he is a super cool guy once you get to know him and get on his mental wave length he is even giving me one of his cars, I am so happy to be surrounded by such positive people positive influence, I have more words for you I wrote them all in time and have been meaning to get on here to show you them… I started radiating kindness once again this time it will be permanent

“A little about myself, my thoughts & a poem”



I’m the kind of man that if a lady of interest asks me about love, then I show her love, simple.

I don’t believe most of the ladies out here have experienced that before so they don’t know how to react when its shown

on top of that a lot of men are completely reckless and clueless about what love is, I constantly see broken hearts

All of this irritates and baffles me quite a bit; love is more than an object and it is not a game


“Falling In Love”


You can feel


for someone

But to become


embodiment of

Love is completely


It means allowing

It to pass through

One another


The physical



Where all

You know

Is each others

Soul as one

( 😂 and I think to myself this is why I probably will never find love….waaay to metaphysical 😒 )



Mysterious Happening

A lot of strange things have been happening in my life I like to think its a coincidence… but maybe the universe is telling me something. I spent last night at one of my favorite bars I started to write poetry but the words could not be written, so I started to draw “star charts” I drew a solar system then I stated to draw galaxies and black holes.

since I couldn’t write my own words I drew a circle out of a beer coaster, of course while enjoying a brew. who ever I met I asked them to put a word in the circle (black hole) the first word that comes to mind or maybe one of their favorite words I let my note book travel the room, and I went to go shoot pool alone, but then in the middle of my solitude my friends showed up and asked if I would like a challenge. I smiled and said “ok, lets dance!” from playing pool we went to shooting darts throwing arrows of time gliding at light speeds through the air hitting a cosmic backround a target…then it began to storm outside so everyone was stuck for a while inside. when the storm passed my original plan was to head home but I went to that spot where I met “the lady who was flaring her hair” like a sun in its nuclear fusion. I sat down on a stone bench outside that bar for a good hour as one with the night *ahem* 🙂  by now I was pretty tanked, and my black hole was full of words a lot of them were misspelled, but hey who cares life isn’t perfect but its beautiful when you really look into that singularity

I laid down to see the clouds of an electric storm dissipate into a sky full of stars And my thoughts went a little like this…..(The solar system the stars….the galaxies and the universe are all endlessly suspended in a majestic quantum entangled waltz to the sound of strings) and then coming from out of the bar a lady with dark hair approached a bench next to me and laid down to look at what I was looking at, funny thing is she asked me what I was looking at, I giggled a bit and said “I’m just looking at the stars” then she asked if I was from a different planet, I lied and said “nope I sure am not from another planet I’am from this one though” 🙂 then I got up and told her “I’ll catch her on the flipside” and I walked off into the dark to now-here. 😉


the poem that follows the silence

…..well it feels like how a sun rises
Into a clear blue sky, were its light
Shines onto everything

Then a butterfly somewhere begins to use it’s wings suddenly….

….I become like a storm one that randomly
Appears on your door step in the dark of night

Drenching rains follow and an electrical storm begins,
Opening the flood gates

Because I can’t hold the waters

And I’m swimming against the